American Podcast and Germany
Dear people,
Life amazes me so much. I am once again in Germany with Dutch people, instead of in Italy with Italians. God's plans are unfathomable and I gladly surrender to them, to lower temperatures and less Southern light - the light is so dear to me in Italy! - and to all the unexpected intensity life brings me in this small community.
When I gave a retreat in the Netherlands at the end of October, we talked about retreat centres over lunch. I told about my search in Italy, about the wonderful retreat centres there and about the huge amounts of money that are asked to stay in them, and that I don't want to be part of that. Remembering our true nature shouldn’t be extremely expensive.. It is, after all, open source. Then someone told me about a place in Germany. I thought: Yes, but Germany is not where I want to be.
After the retreat in the Netherlands, I drove back to Belgium. I had had a place there in the last past months, at a friend’s who welcomed me to his house in between my travels. It was very special. I am so grateful I was allowed to be with him, to explore with him. We were not in a relationship but we explored what love is, how it can be without expectations and just in the moment. It was often very poetic. But our exploration came to an end. I saw that my irregular presence no longer brought him joy, and I also felt for myself that it was time to move on again, to explore new paths. That place in Germany I was told about wasn't very far, maybe I had to go there and have a look after all?
Meanwhile, I am here for the second time. Part of me still thinks she should actually be in Italy, but a bigger part of me knows why she should be here now. For the research of love. I had to come here for a very special encounter that life had provided for me. Life amazes me so much. I get everything I need. I wanted to spend these winter months researching and writing about radical freedom and Absolute Love, as well as other ways of living together. I could not have imagined that life would help me in such a generous way. I need much more space than this letter to write about how love between two people can spring from and dissolve into Absolute Love. For now, I can only say thank you. Thanks to life, thanks to love.
Last week, I was interviewed by Jeff Krisman of the American Deep Conversations podcast. Here is the link to the podcast. Here is the link to the Zoom recording, inc subtitles.
In love,
Zoë
